Wednesday, June 20, 2012

Celebrate his gain...

I don't really know how to start this blog, but I felt like I needed to write it. Maybe as therapy for me... maybe to be helpful to someone else... I don't really know, but after a nearly 3 month blog sabbatical - here goes... 

It's officially June 20th, which means we hit another year... another year without Daddy here with us. 

I was praying earlier to not relive that day... I just don't want to think about the details... but I think it may be inevitable. Ultimately, the biggest detail is that unavoidable one - My life changed on June 20 2009, and it won't ever be the same. 

I don't want this to sound depressing... there is no hiding that I'm sad. In fact, if you saw me right now you would witness a big tear sitting on my cheek and the sniffles that always accompany crying. But I cannot be depressed, because my prayer... my mantra for today is... 

{Celebrate his gain, not mourn his loss}

Easier said than done, of course... but it's a little goal. I miss so many things about him... but I know that his work here on earth was done and on the morning of June 20th it was time for him to reap the reward of the seeds he had sown on this earth... and he sowed many, literally and spiritually. 

I can't describe the blessing he was... it just isn't possible to put him into words which he so gracefully and creatively used to write his songs and observations on life. I wish I could... so that I could explain to all of you who never met him what a truly amazing and unique person he was... a one of a kind without question. Daddy wrote in his bible (my most precious possession) a type of mission statement for himself which I think describes his attitude toward his place in this world so well. 

{I am God's creation, unique from all others. I am what I am because God needed me like this. I am better suited for my place in this world than anyone in this world. No other can take my place, Do what I can do, Be what I can be. -DC}

I pray that we can all have Daddy's attitude about ourselves as individuals. Do your best at being who you are and always recognize that you are God's unique creation. I also think that there is a challenge in that statement as well. If the Lord loved you enough to create you with unique talents, skills, personality, and abilities... you sure as heck better not waste them on anything lest than being your best at those things... because using what He gave you for
His glory, well... that's our job as Christians. 

I know that Mom, Shane, and I aren't the only ones who shed tears over missing Daddy... he had a slew of family members and a heap of friends. I truly don't think he knew how much he impacted others... but that certainly never stopped him from trying. I think I'll spend some time blogging some of his writing and my thoughts on them in the days to come...

I hope that as the years add up... as we get to 4, 5... 10 that June 20th eill continue to be a day of rememberance and reflection with less and less sadness every year. For me this day will forevermore serve as a reminder of the type of person I should be... more like my daddy. Loving, Hardworking, caring, creative, a leader, a friend to all... just a few of his attributes that I hope to always strive for. 

There are many more things I could say but only a few more I will add. For those of you who have prayed for us and been there for us - thank you, and please continue them... especially tomorrow. 

I want to leave you with something Daddy wrote that shows his wisdom on life... and a thought we all need to consider... because we will all experience these realities in life. 

"The only guarantees in life are death and failure! 
They are unavoidable and certain. 
It is how we deal with these two realities 
that will in fact determine out degree of happiness, 
fulfillment and success! 
- Dan"

Love y'all so much... 

1 comment:

  1. Love you so much, Kacey. I was thinking about you today but didn't want to get you upset in front of everybody. Just know I was giving you hugs and saying little prayers for you all day whenever I would think of you.