Monday, March 8, 2010

Birthday Blog...

I went to bed last night crying.

I was thinking about how I wouldn't get a phone call today from my dad or my grandmother.

I was thinking about how I will never read daddy's words on a greeting card that were always so much better than whatever Hallmark could come up with.

I was thinking about not matter how much sadness I feel at his loss, that I will thank and praise God for his Life and hopefully one day be able to praise Him in regard to his death.

I was thinking about how I used to always thank God and be amazed at the fact that God made me such a perfect daddy... we were two puzzle peices that fit together, and how no matter what has happened that I will forever be thankful for the man he was and the love he had for me.

I was thinking about quality vs. quantity... and how there are a whole bunch of people in the world who may have fathers that live to be 100, but they aren't good daddys. I'll take 26 good years over a million bad ones...

I was thinking how thankful I am that God blessed me with another year to live, love, and learn.
I'm crying now as I think about him again... just looking at a picture of him tears my heart out sometimes. Last night I had to hear his voice so I listened to "Kacey's song" before I fell asleep. But... as I reflect on today, my 27th birthday... despite the tears it was a wonderful day. The weather was beautiful, I spent lunch with collegues and dinner with girl friends, and thanks to my small group celebrated with some red velvet cupcakes.
As I try to think of something poignant to leave here... one of the most awesome verses in the bible comes to mind. I'll never forget the first time I heard this verse, really heard it and let it sink in... and I may have shared it here before... but on my birthday I think a verse about individual creation is appropriate.
"For we are His workmanship,
created in Christ Jesus for good works,
which God prepared beforehand that we should
walk in them." (Ephesians 2:10)
God created me 27 years ago for a reason, for a work,
and I'll be here till I complete the job.
Thank you for the birthday wishes and prayers... they have been felt and appreciated.
Love, Kacey


  1. praying for you! thanks for the good words of reflection. happy birthday!

  2. I'm sorry you were so sad. It was the same way for me. I missed momma's calling me and making sure I had a cake. Your daddy had he been home telling some story. Then I thought of how happy they are in heaven, how I have you and all my other loved ones here with me still. They say time heals, maybe it will be so. We just have to find out.